So lately I’ve noticed I don’t enjoy doing things I used to do. Not that I don’t enjoy them necessarily, but I just don’t want to do anything, whether I think it will be fun or not. At first I thought it may be depression, after all it does sound like one of the typical commercials for depression, but I’ve been depressed before and its just not the same. So after feeling this way for about a month or two now I think I may have found the problem. The same thing keeps going in and out of my mind this summer…every time I think about it I get stressed and start to dread it. It’s the upcoming fall semester that is making me feel this way. It has to be. Ever since I signed up for my courses for the fall I just keep thinking how bad its going to be. I have a full load of 18 hours…5 studios and an art history class, so thats a total of 33 hours of class a week (studios double in hours). So, while I have a pretty laid back month right now, just a couple of HPs and work, leaving me more then enough time for free time to have fun…in the back of my mind I’m thinking “In the fall your not going to have time to do anything, your going to be so tired and stressed, better relax while you can now”. So, while I could be going to parties, or adventures and having a blast, I would much rather stay at home and watch a movie or read a book…or just sleep for that matter. So, I guess it’s not depression, just stress for what’s to come. Maybe the stress to come is making me a tad depressed, who knows. All I know is that I’m perfectly content with sitting at home doing nothing for 2 months until school starts, because I have a feeling it is not going to be a good semester. Hopefully I will be wrong…I pray to all that is holy that I will be wrong…we shall see.
Challenge: #7 July 13 12:20 am
