stuck in my head

so the song SORRY by BUCKCHERRY has been stuck in my head for like a week now and i cant seem to get it out. i recommend you download it if you dont already have it in your library. its a really good song and very addicting. so in about a day and a half i will be watching matchbox twenty live and you can even imagine how excited i am about that. i am so excited i cant contain myself. i love rob thomas, he is just so awesomely talented. ha that sounds funny.

3am

so its sunday night…or shall i say monday morning…to be more specific its 3am. im not tired. i thought i was, but i guess i was wrong because all i can do is lay in bed and watch the blades of my fan spin. all is silent except for the occasional car driving down the street and the light breathing and low purr i hear from my cat biggio. berkman is sleeping, why can’t i? i hate it when i cant sleep. well there is no use complaining about it, its not like im going to tire myself out just by talking about it in a wordpress post. well earlier tonight i went to the photo lab and worked on my new photography project thats due next tuesday. im trying to get an early start on it because im going home thursday for the weekend and i don’t want to have to worry about finishing it next monday. we are supposed to do a composite of 2 or more images. the one im working on is 5 images and i really like it. its supposed to be somthing realistic yet when you look at it you question its authenticity i guess you could say. anyways i really like it, so i hope my professor likes it because if she doesnt it pretty much i cant do it. maybe i will put it up later so i can share it with the world. it deserves to be admired. well i guess i should try to sleep or do somthing more productive if that fails. but i guess it would be appropriate if i put up matchbox twentys lyrics to 3 am…so thats what im going to do. sleep tight and enjoy.

—–3am—–

She says its cold outside and she hands me my raincoat
Shes always worried about things like that
She says its all gonna end and it might as well be my fault
And she only sleeps when its raining
And she screams and her voice is straining
(chorus)
She says baby
Its 3am I must be lonely
When she says baby
Well I cant help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rains gonna wash away I believe it

Shes got a little bit of something, God its better than nothing
And in her color portrait world she believes that shes got it all
She swears the moon dont hang quite as high as it used to
And she only sleep when its raining
And she screams and her is straining
(chorus)
She believes that life is made up of all that youre used to
And the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days, and days
She thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway
But outside its stopped raining
(chorus)

a line or two

so i was really bored at work today so i was going through the isles looking for interesting books to read. the sad thing is most of the books i picked i had already read, but anyways thats besides the point. so first i red James Joyce’s Dubliners and then i read The Life of Pi because i havent read either of those since high school. then i came across this quote in The Life of Pi and i really liked it..

“I couldn’t get Him out of my head. Still can’t. I spent three solid days thinking about Him. The more He bothered me, the less I could forget Him. And the more I learned about Him, the less I wanted to leave Him.”

the quote is in reference to God if you havent guessed. i like it because it is very true, at least to me. not like this is what i think in my everyday life and every second of the day, but every once in a while it just comes to me and i feel this way. anyways just thought i would leave you with that.
so before i end this i will put up some more matchbox twenty lyrics because i know you are dying to see them! this one is called Bent.

—–Bent—–

If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk

If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around Ill smile again

Shouldnt be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again

Can you help me Im bent
Im so scared that Ill never
Get put back together

Youre breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

If I couldnt sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot

I started out clean but Im jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin

Can you help me Im bent
Im so scared that Ill never
Get put back together

Youre breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Start bending me
Its never enough
I feel all your pieces

Start bending me
Keep bending me until Im completely broken in

Shouldnt be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again

Can you help me Im bent
Im so scared that Ill never
Get put back together

Youre breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Can you help me Im bent
Im so scared that Ill never
Get put back together

Youre breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

just for the sake of blogging

you know what i cant stand…well there are a lot of things i cant stand…but at this moment what has been bothering me more and more in the last couple weeks is meaningless conversation. yeah i guess its kinda random…but i do not like meaningless conversation. no i’m not talking about just retarded/im bored conversation…im talking about like when someone just talks to you to fill time, or because its quiet. you know sometimes silence is nice. hence the saying “silence is golden”. what makes me bring this up you ask? well i was at work the other day and it was just me and one other person and we had absolutly nothing to do. well he had a book so he was reading (i had forgotton my book at home), and i was just doing meaningless things like lookin at my photos i had printed earlier and making a grocery list and pacing back and forth and listening to the music and etc. so yes, i was bored…but it wasn’t that bad. then as i was just standing there he dropped his book and was just like “so how was your day, how are your classes going?”. I replied with suspicion like “oooook i guess…why?”. and he replies, “well you look bored and i feel bad since i have a book and you are just standing there…”, i just kinda laughed it off and was like oh no read your book im fine…and so he did. but after i was thinking….whats the point of that type of conversation unless you actually cared? he didn’t really care how things were going with me…he just wanted me to feel less bored i guess. i dont like that kind of conversation. talk to me only if you really want to talk to me…dont talk to me because you think you are saving me from boredom. belive me, i can take boredom…i survive it on a daily basis…probably even on an hourly basis. i dunno, it kinda just bugged me. i know he had good intentions…it was nice of him…but what a dork. well ok enough of that….so i decided in honor of me seeing matchbox twenty next thursday i will keep posting my favorite song lyrics to try and spread the good word of rob thomas and matchbox twenty! lol todays lyrics come from the song BED OF LIES…you should download every song i put on here because they are freaking awesome and you wont be sorry!

—–Bed of Lies—–

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And therell be no rest for these tired eyes
Im marking it down to learning
I am

Dont think that I can take another empty moment
Dont think that I can fake another hollow smile
Its not enough just to be sorry
Dont think that I could take another talk about it

Just like me you got needs
And theyre only a whisper away
And we softly surrender
To these lives that weve tendered away

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And therell be no rest for these tired eyes
Im marking it down to learning
I am

Dont wanna be the one who turns the whole thing over
Dont wanna be somewhere where I just dont belong
Where its not enough just be sorry

Dont you know I feel the darkness closing in
Tried to be more than me
And I gave till it all went away
And weve only surrendered
To the worst part of these winters weve made

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And therell be no rest for these tired eyes
Im marking it down to learning
I am

I am all that Ill ever be
When you - lay your hands
Over me but dont go weak on me now
I know that its weak
But God help me I need this

I will not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And therell be no rest for these tired eyes
Im marking it down to learning
Im marking it down to learning
cause I am

my wish has come true!

today is the best day! so after a series of unfortunate events i thought i may not be able to get tickets for the matchbox twenty concert…but ALAS! today i won two tickets on ebay to the concert and they are on the floor too! so i will be oober close to Rob (yes i am on a first name basis with him lol). i am so freakin excited! so next thursday i will be in houston soaking in as much Matchbox twenty as i can. so in honor of this monumentous event i decided to put the lyrics of one of my favorite matchbox twenty songs…so here it is…its called HAND ME DOWN.

———-Hand Me Down————
Someday theyll find your small town world on a big town avenue
Gonna make you like the way they talk when theyre talking to you
Gonna make you break out of the shell cause they tell you to
Gonna make you like the way they lie better than the truth
Theyll tell you everything you wanted someone else to say
Theyre gonna break your heart, yeah

[chorus]

From what Ive seen
Youre just a one more hand me down
Cause no ones tried to give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now

Somebody ought to take you in
Try to make you love again
Try to make you like the way they feel
When theyre under your skin
Never once did think theyd lie when theyre holding you
You wonder why they havent called
When they said theyd call you
You start to wonder if youre ever gonna make it by
Youll start to think you were born blind

[chorus]

From what Ive seen
Youre just a one more hand me down
Cause no ones tried to give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now

Im here for the hard times
The straight to your heart times
Whenever it aint easy
You can stand up against me
And maybe rely on me
And cry on me, yeah
Oh no, no, no

Some day theyll open up your world
Shake it down on a drawing board
Do their best to change you
They still cant erase you

[chorus]

From what Ive seen
Youre just a one more hand me down
Cause no ones tried to give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now

Lay them down on me
Oh yeah
Youre just one more hand me down
And all those nots dont give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down…on me

the one and only matchbox 20

take a wild guess who is coming to Houston on Feb. 28….can’t guess? well you are dumb then because there are the subject of this blog…MATCHBOX 20! so i begged my mom for tickets and at first she said yes…but then she found out the only prices left would make the 2 tickets cost 150 bucks…so then she said no…but then i found some on ebay for 130 bucks and then she said maybe (and sarcasticly added maybe i should pray for them at church tomorrow). Usually when my mom says maybe she ends up caving in and saying yes. and i hope she does because i REALLY want to go. and she kind of owes me too…last year i asked for red hot chili peppers tickets and she forgot to buy them and in december she forgot to give me money for dane cook tickets. so i think she feels bad for the last two mess ups. so i hope she gets the tickets. i saw rob thomas a couple summers ago on his tour and i absolutly loved him. he has the greatest voice and he writes all of his own lyrics so that makes him extra special in my book. so yes, while at church tomorrow i may add getting the tickets at the end of my prayers, i mean it couldnt hurt right?

PS: if you want to pray that i get the tickets too that would be great and i would love you forever!

eww..politics

so recently at work and other social gatherings politics have been discussed. its kinda funny, because while i hate politics, i know a lot about the subject and sometimes shock people who think im a complete retard. anyways, to be more specific with the politics subject we have been discussing the 2008 presidential campaigns. so, who do i think will make a good president? good question, because to be honest i dont like any of the politicians that are running right now. the two that i liked, or even could tolerate dropped out. so now im stuck with what i think is a lousy selection for our countrys leaders. for those that dont know me or my political posistions i will just let you know this…i am a moderate. i am a moderate who tends to lean on the conservative side when it comes to more economical issues and lean on the liberal side when it comes to social issues. in general though, im a moderate. i tend to vote more on the republican side though. so for this election i was rooting for Rudy Giuliani. i really liked him. mostly because he is sort of a moderate too that leans on the more conservative side so it was a good match i think he would do an awesome job. well he dropped out. so im like shit. who do i vote for now. i could tolerate john edwards, he seems very sincere and i think he would do a good job too (i dont really care that hes a democrat) but then he dropped out too… so double shit. im really screwed now. so my options now are mccain, huckabee, clinton, and obama. so this really sucks. i wouldnt have a problem with mccain if it wasnt for his views on border control. there is no way in hell im voting for someone who wants to open up the borders for all to come in….freakin retarded. and he has a hot temper so im afraid one day he might be cranky and hit a red button and relase nukes or somthin. then theres huckabee, no way im gonna vote for him. i dont feel safe with an evangelitcal christian in office. sure im a christian, and no i dont think its a problem if our president is christian, but evangelicals tend to be a little extreme in thier views. for all i know he will combine church and state or somthin. then theres the dems. obama is just an idiot. the guys have like 5 books out about himself. vain much? and he calls his forieghn policiy experience living in asia when he was between the ages of 6 and 10. um no. and i dont think hes sincere. i just get a bad feeling about hime. then theres clinton. all the woman focuses on is universal healthcare. yes it all sounds good, but the chances of her making universal healthcare are kinda slim. plus if thats all she focuses on in office then the country is screwed because as of right now that seems to be her only concern. so in conclusion i have no clue who im voting for. so should i still vote if i dont like any of the candidates? i dunno. i think i should. but i dunno. knowing me i will probably cave and vote for mccain. but in my eyes all he really has going for him is that guiliani is backing him up. for that he should be thankful because that is whats making me lean towards his side. if he just wouldnt open the borders i would be cool. he should really reconsider that. yah he should….